ALL MY LIFE · I drive across a void · In my car the night is empty · Feel like an asteroid · A shooting star and you don’t see me · God are you keeping score · I tried so hard it doesn’t matter · I imagined something more · Whenever I get close it shatters · I’ve waited all my life for something · There must be more than this · I’ve waited all my life for something good · I’ve waited all my life for something · A reason to exist · I’ve waited all my life for something good · I stumble down this road · Drunk on dreams anticipating · Sometimes I feel so cold · While she’s out there just levitating · A star in the night sky · Surrounded by a million others · Sometimes I want to fly on wings of stars · So I could see her · All alone in the cold I feel like I’m naked · A story folding into itself here itself here · Now I drift through space · Got so far on empty · Can’t find your star · Now I live in this place · Drowning in my memories · Wonder where you are · Where you are

BLOW UP DOLL · When I see you lightning crashes · And I turn to a pile of ashes · You make me feel so spastic · But you’re made of blow up plastic · My doll to keep when I can’t sleep · Sometimes I feel like I’m a creep · It won’t it won’t be long now · I feel it coming on · It won’t it won’t be long now · I feel it coming on · You’re so full of empty nothing · I still want to bash your button · I hate you I feel awful · I still want to burst your bubble · I’ve waited here so long · · Just like a big nothing · Without my trick turn on · I wouldn’t get nothing

COUNT ON YOU · There was a time when I was blind · When I was naked · Fated to fall through this ice so thin · So many times I wished that I could only count on · Depend on the person in your skin · Every time I turn to you · I find myself just falling through · This ice so thin of empty words · Too numb to feel the way this hurts · It’s invisible what holds me here · What I can’t undo · I fall through · I vanish without a trace · This umbilical that holds me here · In this orbit · I don’t fit · I feel so out of place · Now I’m stuck here in this empty space · Now I won’t be the one that you depend on · And I won’t be here when · When you will falter · And I won’t be the one that you will count on · Cause I will watch you fall from your altar · I’ll watch you fall you fall · Cause I know I can’t count on you · I’ll watch you fall you fall · Cause I know I can’t count on you · I know better than to count on you · I know better than to count on you for your anything · For your anything

DIFFERENT NOW · If I was to see you on the street · Would you find a way not to know me · You’re so everything I’m incomplete · Can’t stop your distance growing · You are so different now · You are so different now · You are so · You are so · So different now · So now you’re big and I’m still small · There’s nothing here worth knowing · Do you ever think of me at all · You’re so busy with your fat head growing · Suspended above your chasm hole · A void so black and empty · I’m dripping sweat I feel so cold · I’m hopeless so completely · You’re so everything I’m incomplete · Can’t stop your distance growing

DISAPPEAR · I’m drowning in waves of your apathetic · Drifting in miles of endless sea · Come save me before I disappear · I’m disappearing · Still trying to reach you but just get static · Through all the noise are you listening at all · Are you there at all · Is someone receiving · Sometimes I feel like I could fade away · Sometimes I feel like I could fade away · Sometimes I feel like I’ll never learn · Sometimes I wish I could fade away · Sometimes I wish life would take a turn · And you wouldn’t need me to fade away · You’re so satisfied with your whole aesthetic · Your self indulgent reverie · Now I’m bleeding and now I’m less than a blur · The edges are blurring · Keep trying to find you it’s so pathetic · The distance is growing steadily · You’re so far · There’s nothing so far to stop my submerging · Vanish into thin air · Would you even care · And if I never called would you notice at all if I disappeared · If I disappeared

FREE · I woke up to the sound of distant screaming · To voices in my head trying to find me · This ringing in my ears is so loud it hurts · The beauty disappears trapped in this curse · When I’m asleep I see so clearly · And I am free from this hell · Feels good to be free of your annihilation · Good to be free of your soul violation · Good to be free of all your non-elation · Good to be free of all your empty tasting · Sometimes I get a sense of new found freedom · Like a massive weight is lifting off me · I’m blinded by a light a new found vision · Preparing to take flight for what I’m seeing · Now I can see things out there · These demons haunting me · Oozing shit from everywhere · When I’m asleep I’ll break free · I’ll break free

GET WITH YOU · I want your complication · To taste your bitter medicine · You are my soul salvation · Unlock the door and let me in · I wish I could get with you · In your x-rated · I like everything you do · In your sedated · I wish I could get with you · The things you do · You do you do · You do like you do · I want your love secretion · I want to taste you in my mouth · You are my sole completion · You hold the key · Just let me out · You are my lost and found · You are my all time fantasy · I need your love somehow · You are my one stop remedy

HAPPENS ALL THE TIME · You are so incredibly perfect but it’s only on the surface · You are so incredibly ugly underneath your fragile excess · I feel like I’m detested · Yes I want you I confess it · In a box so tiny · You like to crucify me · It happens all the time · Every time you come around · It happens all the time · It’s embarrassing · It happens all the time · Every time I turn around · It happens all the time · It’s embarrassing, embarrassing · Why do you like to crucify me · Shove me in a box so tiny · Dump a pile of your shit on me · It’s okay if you feel better · Whatever makes you happy · Now you know which vein to sever · Kill me with your knife so shiny · Why do you like to crucify me · Shove me in a box so tiny · When you could use it to untie me there · Untied is forever · Untied to you

HONEST TO GOD · I spent my whole life crawling through this tunnel · Fell out of my mom without a prayer · One day I saw a light in the distance · That light was you but you don’t really care · Cause you found your God and it’s not me · Hope you’re happy · Hope you’re happy cause I am · I am I swear I swear · I’m happy honest to God · I’m happy I am overjoyed · I’m happy honest to God · I’m happy I am overjoyed · This Romeo isn’t all that tragic · Just kick my face cause I like eating dirt · Now everything works for you like magic · That’s okay cause I don’t really hurt · Cause I found my God and it’s not you · Hope you’re happy · Hope you’re happy cause I am · I am I swear I swear · There’s no pain in my head you’re dead · There’s no stain in my bed instead · Cause I’m doing fine in my black hole instead

NUMB · I feel like an empty page with · My name scratched upon · Erase it now before it tears · Make it fade to zero · Floating in a Thorazine river in my head · I feel like I’m disappearing · Disappear disappear · I can’t I can’t feel anything now · But the need to fly · I can’t I can’t feel anything now but numb · I can’t feel your anything · I can’t I can’t feel anything now · But the need to fly · I can’t I can’t feel anything now but numb · I can’t feel your anything · I feel like I’m dying in this prison in my head · Hollow eyes are trained to stare · So intent on killing · Drowning in antiseptic · Wash it all away · I feel like I’m disappearing · Disappear disappear · Copacetic anesthetic drowning in my head · In my head · Anesthetic so pathetic smells like something dead · In my head something dead · This anesthetic in my head · I think its working working · Think its working good · I can’t feel your anything now · Your anything · But the need to fly now · Your anything

UMBILICAL NOOSE · Evaporating a black puddle in white clouds · No hesitating I can see salvation now · Levitating I feel my feet lift off the ground · Its hard relating · How you turn my world around · Turn around turn around turn around · I hang on every single word · That you say to me · Your pretty noose around my neck · Driving me insane · I hang on every single word · That you say to me · Your pretty noose around my neck · Driving me insane · I woke up dreaming · I was swimming in your eyes · Sunlight is streaming · In a world with butterflies · And then I’m freezing · Stuck where angels are not found · You are receding · And you will not turn around · Drop your noose around my neck and I can fly · And I can see a million shades of salvation · Take me on your miracle magic ride · So I can see your million shades · Your million shades

YOUR ALTITUDE · When I’m around you I feel so small so microscopic · You hardly notice I’m there at all feel so unwanted · Now maybe it’s just paranoia · I feel like your enemy · Like everything I do annoys you · I feel so lonely · I feel like a beggar · A dog at the table · Begging for a scrap of food · Because I can’t reach your altitude · Would you give me a reason · When I stand beside you · You don’t give a shit at all · And you just make me feel so small and insecure · You are so beautiful that’s why they stare · Made you conceited · Wish you would notice me but you don’t care · Feel so unneeded · I saw you floating disregarding · You’re all alone in your savage garden · Because you’re so far · So far away from here · You seem so far from here